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I was at Ankerklause with Luke this evening when a girl approached us to ask for money. I greeted her with a “hi,” and she started to cry, saying no one said hi this evening to her. I didn’t have any coins, so I gave her 5 euros, and she began crying even more, saying we had such good energy. I told her the same—it’s always a two-way exchange, after all.

After she left, I cried. I’m glad Luke and I made space for her to be emotional, to cry, and that we shared her sadness. No one should carry such emotions alone.

The experience sent me on an emotional roller coaster, making me reflect deeply.

I’m so tired of living such a hypocritical life! How can I spend 250 euros on boots, yet only give her 5 euros, or sometimes even less when people ask for help? How can I not work and earn, just to give more away? Why do I keep things for myself, buying more, when I could do so much more for others?

I should volunteer this winter.